A Dalit
I would distance myself from an identity of mine which I had been shameful of for most of my life. I had been shameful of the fact that I availed something called reservation and got through universities like I did. My shame, for some comfort to me now, did not come from within in me but from what I had been taught and told through existing in the urban setting of a seemingly egalitarian cityscape. It took me some beating from the feudal lords in some not so feudal circumstances to realize this is the only thing I have inherited. What I have in me is generations of torture, pain and tragedy. Something I would continue to bear until I take strength from the trauma to shatter this abominable setting.
I am a Dalit who forgot her place. My place
as a warrior in the shadows of misery to come up and take your insolence by its
throat. Suffocate it until it speaks of the truth it so fastidiously hid from
under the banner of ‘Umbridge’ eyes and disgusting pitiful smiles. Don’t you
realise how easy it is to see where you stand despite the words you use to
decorate solemnity of your stance. The only thing really solemn I see in you is
your will to crush anything that opposes your tyranny. My will is to strip your
souls the way you strip our bodies.
I look at a namesake and I see the carbon
copy of a pain I know so well. How easy it is to recall the sound of one’s
shattering will around those who have been through just the same. It winds up
becoming a brotherhood of tears where our eyes meet with a longing to be seen
and to be heard. Where we are busy knitting a world for one another to finally
find solace to our woes since there is no one else who would care to see. I
want to be called a Dalit for the struggles that unite us.
How disgustingly powerful can a flow of
thought be to leech itself to power-seekers and glory-holders so much that you
all consented to beat us up like this. Enough power for you to inject us with
that dark matter and kill us in your own way. Joke is on you, for we survive
like we have through rebellions where we shout and shout until your ears bleed.
Until hearing us is not your choice but a necessity you cannot dare to avoid.
For those who falsely claim to be our allies,
your words are merely bandages you dress yourselves with so neatly to cover up
an unbridled guilt of self-preservation. Those who truly stand with us
understand our trauma somewhat like an unspoken bond made through common
suffering. I’ll end this with an appraisal to what is just and what is true as
this is the only thing we fight for and will continue to fight for. Stand with
us or don’t, just make it a point to never pity us.
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